Posts tagged Nerves

I feel like I’m about to puke. 

It’s a combination of anxiety, nerves and nausea from an antibiotic I’m taking. I leave tomorrow for Berlin and will be there for two weeks on a photojournalism study abroad and then two more weeks of travel which will include Paris, Cannes, Florence and Zurich before I get back to Berlin for my return flight to The States. 

I’ve traveled back and forth between the U.S. coasts plenty of times- I even drove across the country this one time (okay, so I mostly co-piloted, but I was damn good at it!). I spent a month in Cambodia and I have the medical records to prove it. So why am I shaking in my boots at this? 

I don’t know. I wish I did. As I like to say (especially when under the influence of exhaustion or anything else) I’m a strong, independent woman, but right now the mantra I’m repeating to myself is “You are okay” (said in the voice of a dear friend who repeated it to me today until I think he was blue in the face). I have some real first-world problems, don’t I? Don’t worry, I hate myself just as much as you do for this.

So please, send me positive prayers, thoughts, vibes (whatever you feel) and I’ll send you updates here. Expect musings and photos, I’ll post as many as I can as often as I can. Shouldn’t be hard. I heard Europe has way better internet than Southeast Asia.  

Now excuse me as I go breathe deeply into a paper bag.